It's not that I need you (entirely), it's not that I can't live without you, and it's not that I love you...I just want you. The sound of your voice makes me smile. When I'm upset, you never fail to make me laugh. I feel utter excitement when your name shows up on my phone, because I know it's my "Babyeeeeeeeeeeee" calling me.
It hurts to know that I can't have you. Before, the mere thought of us being together seemed simply intangible
It's crazy how we went from calling each other everyday to barely speaking. We went from seeing each other as often as possible, to not bothering to see one another at all - but the fact of the matter is, I genuinely miss you. Yeah, we laugh, we joke, we play...but I don't think you'll ever realize how much I think of you - how much the thought of you plagues my mind daily. Even today!! I long to receive that text from you that says, "Heyyyy," to at least make me feel like I've crossed your mind.
You'll never fully grasp the impact that I feel you've made in my life. How much I truly appreciated and cherished your presence. Jealousy and envy besiege my life/emotions. I don't want anyone else to have the opportunity to experience you, because they will never appreciate you for the trivial things that make you the beautiful person that you are. Simply put, I adore you.
The worst part of all, I know now that we could never be more than just friends, BUT if I had the chance to do it over again, I would STILL choose YOU. I just hope one day you'll understand my feelings and the sincerity behind them. I wish we would have just agreed-to-disagree and embraced one another's differences.
I believe NOW, more than ever you were the prefect girl for me, but was i the prefect guy for you? A question I asked myself everyday, then and now... The answer is NO!! and for that i had to say goodbye in the worst way possible to make sure i could not go back , in a way i could not fix and you would not let me fix.
The truth is I love you now and forever... And to see you happy my heart breaks. The half that let you go is happy for you, but the other half cries out wondering Why YOU HAD TO GO??!!! because even today my heart is still all about you ....
It hurts to know that I can't have you. Before, the mere thought of us being together seemed simply intangible
It's crazy how we went from calling each other everyday to barely speaking. We went from seeing each other as often as possible, to not bothering to see one another at all - but the fact of the matter is, I genuinely miss you. Yeah, we laugh, we joke, we play...but I don't think you'll ever realize how much I think of you - how much the thought of you plagues my mind daily. Even today!! I long to receive that text from you that says, "Heyyyy," to at least make me feel like I've crossed your mind.
You'll never fully grasp the impact that I feel you've made in my life. How much I truly appreciated and cherished your presence. Jealousy and envy besiege my life/emotions. I don't want anyone else to have the opportunity to experience you, because they will never appreciate you for the trivial things that make you the beautiful person that you are. Simply put, I adore you.
The worst part of all, I know now that we could never be more than just friends, BUT if I had the chance to do it over again, I would STILL choose YOU. I just hope one day you'll understand my feelings and the sincerity behind them. I wish we would have just agreed-to-disagree and embraced one another's differences.
I believe NOW, more than ever you were the prefect girl for me, but was i the prefect guy for you? A question I asked myself everyday, then and now... The answer is NO!! and for that i had to say goodbye in the worst way possible to make sure i could not go back , in a way i could not fix and you would not let me fix.
The truth is I love you now and forever... And to see you happy my heart breaks. The half that let you go is happy for you, but the other half cries out wondering Why YOU HAD TO GO??!!! because even today my heart is still all about you ....
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